lately, I cant breath
lately, I cant eat
And sleep is a thing of the past
Just like you
Well the idea of you
Because I never had you
I just had the idea
Because that’s what you do
You make everyone think
But only give us enough to create our own image
Because It suppose to be us that creates our own happiness
But I want you to apart of this as well
I want us to be happy, not just me
I dont want to be happy without you
Without you I’m numb
Without you, I’ve taken a backseat to my life
I watch the lights, The wercks
Without seeing the Beauty
Without seeing the mess
Without seeing you
Because Nothing can compare to what I see in you
The mess you are
The mess you make me
How beautiful you are
How beautiful we are
But they told me this was going to be a long ride
And Love, I am here for that ride no matter how long you want to drive for
We can even listen to your playlist
Because, your music is the only thing I can hear in my world anyway
You are my world
but think of it like this
I am the moon
and you are the world
where safety rest
but also so scared of everything
I’m the moon and I can never be apart of your world
You have so much
You have the world
You are endless and you never stop giving all of you
I am the moon
Pale, Cold, Alone, sad, I just want to come home
But you were never my home
you were just the idea of a home but I still come and see you every night.
did it hurt you?
happened to us. of all people, right?
I mean I never thought that I was the type of person.
And I never thought you would become the person that I made you be.
but, it happens right?
Everything I could have asked for
your hair, Music taste, love. So much love
you made me worth every moment.
All I ever did hurt you.
Someone who I loved more than the moon
someone that could take every piece of darkness away from me when the moon couldn’t
But when My moon was hiding you took the stars
so I was left in all of my darkness
I was left in my world
left with the night and my mind
The most destructive monster I’ve ever seen
I mean it was the one who destroyed the night sky.
Oh yeah, Happy Birthday.
Because you are stronger than that
Don’t cry because he won’t see it anyway
No one cares
Because you really won’t do it
Don’t cry You are so tired of crying over the same boy the same boy who you let use you emotionally
You are so tired of crying over the same boy The same boy who you let use you emotionally
The same boy who you let use you emotionally
The same boy that you help rebuild just so another can have him
You don’t get to be heald and you have to get over that
It’s not your turn it’s not your life to live
Baby you’ve been living for years
Its everyone else that makes you feel like you’re not living
I know it’s not fair but that’s this go around you don’t get the prince in this story
You just get to help him find his princess
BUT I AM THE PRINCESS
I know you are but you’re not the one they want
Because you’re the one they need
The moon is perfect company I’ve been trying to escape
But you’re the one that leaves me in the morning
Left with the light
Left with the fight
The Fight of the day
Sometimes much like this time
Time is too much
Sometimes I want time to end
last night you almost kissed me on the forehead, but something came over you right before your lips met me for the first time. So, you just smashed your mouth into my head.
Now, How am I supposed to work with that? How do you move forward? Why can’t you make up your mind? Do you want to try this? Do I want to try this?
I know that if we try and this doesn’t work I could lose everything.
I cant lose everything again.
I couldn’t lose you. I won’t lose you.
But if we do this you could lose me, Its always you that leaves. Even when I’m begging with my eyes with my body that you just stay five more minutes. but you cant just stay with me. you cant just sit with me. there have to be others around or…. or what?
we would have to face it
I face you
I haven’t looked at you in so long. I’m so scared to fall into those eyes again
the eyes of you
because I know what comes after falling into those eyes. those eyes lead to a bottomless pit of an up or down. But whatever goes up must come down right so whats the point.
Because you are the best thing that has ever happen to me.
But I said that about the last one, and the one before that so.
I ask again whats the point.
Now I know I sound redundant.
Tonight a star made me look at the moon
I’ve been with this moon for many moons
But this one star, in a sky with trillions of stars
This one star
Made me look
Made me see
The moon that was always mine
Taking to you is as hard as waking up
Talking to you is like loving yourself in the morning
loving you is like talking to you
Because talking to you is facing who I am and who Im not
Someone whos good enough
Someone worth your time
Talking to you is knowing Im worth my time
Am I worth my time
Loving you is having to love me
Thats why I cant talk to you
Because I dont know how to love me
Hi, my name is Taylor Mayo and I’m trying. It sounds like a punchline because it’s to the end of the joke I call my life. This sounds cliche but I’m trying.
I’m trying to make you see that I’m really giving my all to this thing we call life. Just some days its really hard for me to try.
I’m trying to make you feel the pain that I have from doing what they call “normal” day to day things.
I’m trying to talk to you.
I mean really talk to you because that’s something I never fiugerd out how to do that and not just with you with everyone.
You wonder why I say im tryig
I say this because I littliry cant speak. I cant use words most of the time because I cant contorl what I say.
Because I was thought that what im saying isnt going to make a differnce so why even say it.
I cant control what I say
the other person in my head that controls what I’m saying tells me to shout from the rooftops
I know that most people can handle what we have to say
So when I say I’m trying it’s really me saying I tired of people leaving me
So I stopped shouting and now I’m trying
Now I try to find people that I don’t have to talk to
the ones that just know
the ones that see me shouting from the inside
they can see the panic flow though me that is me trying.